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ok, i feel really bad cause i haven't written anything in here in almost a month, but its the new year, and i vow to write in this journal at least 2 times a week (ha, yeah right.... ok, i'll try...... if i have to). anyways, good break, i actually got to see drew 2 times, i think, which is really good for us because my parents are insane and i'm insanely busy. I got a BRAND NEW GEMEINHARDT FLUTE FOR CHRISTMAS!!!! which happens to be the best of the best of the best of flutes ever and i LOVE IT! anyways... life is good in my little corner of the world, and i'm all crazy-happy because everything is changing for the better with the arrival of the new year.....

lots of hugs,
Christiana

Current Mood: crazy

not having band anymore is so depressing...... i mean, i kno i hated the freezing cold and the late nights, but band had become my life, and now i have no life. how sad. i'm never gonna get to see my boyfriend, and i now have absolutly no purpose after school... i'm not used to this. i kept on thinking band would never end. and then it did, and i was not expecting it... i'm still trying to get used to the idea of it. i wish it hadn't ended.... i would do almost anything to keep the season going all year.

WOO-HOO!!!!!! we have lasted 2 months, i am shocked, i mean, not that drew's a bad boyfriend or anything, but i have to say, in the beginning, i really didn't think it would work out at all..... I'm so happy it did, wow, he is so perfect... just hope tommorow goes better than our last anniversary, lol!

homework to do, so ta ta 4 now!
christy

Life: 8
Mind: 7
Body: 7.3
Spirit: 8.3
Friends/Family: 7.7
Love: 7.7
Finance: 5.8

(this is on a scale of 1-10)

my parents think i'm the biggest loser in the world because i quit swim team, i mean, u should have seen their faces when i told them.... mom yelled at me for a friggin half hour... dad just got all dissappointed and REFUSED to believe that this is what i really wanted. they just don't seem to get that this is my life and this is what i really want. i mean, i really want to make my parents proud of me, but unless i do what they want me to do with MY life, they are NEVER happy. Its like, here is me the way my parents want me, prep school (MSA), swim team, 110 pounds, perfect grades, NO BOYFRIEND, no guy friends, no music but what they like, completely innocent.... gosh, come on, anyone who knows me knows i'm nuthin like that... i like woodrow, i love band, i'm tired of swimming, definetly not 110 pounds, my grades are good but not good enough, there is no way i'm loosing my boyfriend, all of my best friends are guys, sorry but i like Green Day, and innocent, yeah, i'm REAL innocent... sigh... i wish i could make myself stop wanting their approval... i kno i can't make them happy, but i keep trying... GRRR!!!!!

Butterfly

Current Mood: stressed
Current Music: Green Day, so there mom!

hey everybody ... just checking in and saying hey.... i'm crazy bored... talking to drew on the phone.... he didn't tell his mom about his geometry grade yet... hope he doesn't get grounded, this saturday will be the first saturday we have had to chill out together in who knows how long, and we need some time together, alone, without Mr. Bailey.... stupid band competitions.... anyways, i will write more l8tr cause my mom will be gone until 4 tommorow....

ta ta 4 now
Christy

Current Mood: crazy

rain is so friggin depressing..... not that much to say.... the 3 exciting things in my life right now are:
1. my sister is home!!
2. the competition tommorow
3. the hopes of mini golfing and pizza hut


~YOU HAVE GOT TO APPRICIATE THESE LYRICS~

"Mood Rings"

we all know the girls that i am talking about
well they are time bombs and they are ticking
and the only question's when they'll blow up
and they'll blow up; we know that without a doubt
cause they're those girls, yeah you know those girls that let their emotions get the best of them

and i've contrived some sort of a plan to help my fellow man
let's get emotional girls to all wear mood rings
so we'll be tipped off to when they're ticked off
cause we'll know just what they're thinking
cause what they're thinking...

she's so pretty but she but doesn't always act that way
her mood's out swinging on the swing set almost every day
she said to me that she's so happy it's depressing
and all i said was "someone get that girl a mood ring"

if it's drama you want then look no further
they're like the real world meets boy meets world meets days of our lives
and it just kills me how they get away with murder
they'll anger you then bat their eyes; those pretty eyes that watch you sympathize

and i've contrived some sort of a plan to help my fellow man
let's get emotional girls to all wear mood rings
so we'll be tipped off to when they're ticked off
cause we'll know just what they're thinking
cause what they're thinking...

she's so pretty but she but doesn't always act that way
her mood's out swinging on the swing set almost every day
she said to me that she's so stressed out that it's soothing
and all i said was "someone get that girl a mood ring"

cause when it's black (it) means watch your back because you're probably
the last person in the world right now she wants to see
and when it's blue it means that you should call her up immediately
and ask her out because she'll most likely agree
and when it's green it simply means that she is really stressed
and when it's clear it means she's completely emotionless (and that's all right i must confess)

we all know the girls that i am talking about
she liked you wednesday but now it's friday and she has to wash her hair
and it just figures that we'll never figure them out
first she's jekyll and then she's hyde....at least she makes a lovely pair

mood ring oh mood ring
oh tell me will you bring
the key to unlock this mystery
of girls and their emotions
play it back in slow motion
so i may understand the complex infrastructure known as the female mind


ok, relient k is my new favorite band, and i liked them before they ever had a video on MTV, if u don't like them u don't kno what ur missing.....


anyways, gotta run, gonna go have a rockin party with my sister

ta-ta 4 now,
Christiana, but Mr. Bailey thinks my name is Christina, so u can call me whatever u want...lol

Current Mood: crazy
Current Music: RELIENT K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wow, homework sucks, i've been doing it for the last 2 hours.... and i still have more.... oh well... i'll just get a zero.... anyways, just checking in, saying that my life is fairly good. On the list of thing accomplished today i can say that i discovered that i am "lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting", or so the Dr. Phil quiz says... and that i was a season i would be fall, if i was an element i would be wind or water, and that i am an exceptionally emotional person... who knew, lol....

i dunno, what can i say, life is good.... well the the marching festival on saturday was absolutly HORRIBLE, my dad is in alabama on yet another flight, report cards are coming up, its been way too long since i've actually gotten to kiss my boyfriend, and i've got the antichrist as my flag instructor, but besides that, life is grand!

hey, at least the good outways the bad.

quote of the day- "the NHS regrets to inform u that your birth was an accident. Please report to the nearest hospital to be put down. We apologize for any inconvinience."

Current Mood: quixotic, what IS quixotic?

please don't feel guilty... because you have made me happy so many more times than you have made me sad...

Current Mood: lethargic

I've been sitting here for like the last 10 minutes listening to Kelly Clarkson trying to think of what to write.... i mean my life is grand and all, but i still feel screwed up inside... i mean when i look at other peoples lives i kno i have no right to complain... but still... its not like any of my friends have hurt me or anything, i just feel, so imperfect... i'm not happy with who i am. anyone can say that no one is perfect but that still doesn't stop me from expecting perfection out of myself. i mean, i kno i'm not skinny enough, and i'm not getting perfect grades which means i'm not smart enough. i guess i should be happy with who i am, but... its like i'm not capable of it....

Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: kelly clarkson

well, i've got another 5 secound writing oppurtunity b4 my parents get home, so this will be short....
besides i don't have that much to say.... i mean, my life is pretty good..... and drew thinks i complain too much, so i won't complain today... just let me say that my nose really hurts..... i'm just really glad my parents let me go to woody, i mean, i would be totally friendless at msua (besides victor), and i have the COOLEST friends at woodrow.... tyler and margaret and juanita and buford and john and drew and well like everyone in band.... everybody always acts like band is the lamest thing ever in high school, but it is soooo the coolest....

tt4n,
Christy

Current Mood: tired

well, i got like 5 secounds to write cause my mom is supposed to be back any minute.... just wanted to talk about how friggin awesome the party was on saturday night..... lol...... sooo many good memories.... i haven't laughed that hard since this crap with my parents started! It was so great seeing amy in shock.... she didn't have a clue....

lets see, at the party i got smeared with cake icing, got a shoe kicked at my head, listened to a song about donald duck having a... well, nevermind..., watched some witchy little kids sing about killing santa claus (sandy claws), got to chill with drew without having to deal with my parents, watched john try to make himself look like madonna, played capture the flag in the dark.... and had soooooo much fun......

thanks sooo much for throwing that party margaret....

more l8tr, i think my mom just pulled into the driveway

Current Mood: crazy

hey everybody... sorry i haven't been writing, i'm not actually allowed on the comp., like, ever, so its hard to find the chance to write. Anyways i'm just letting you all know this and thanking you for the luvly comments about my last entry, which by the way, i really did not kno that was from spiderman... i promise.... why would i want to copy spiderman...?????? And last but not least.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY!!!!!!!!!!!! I HOPE YOUR B-DAY ROCKS

Current Mood: content

I kno i said that i wasn't gonna vent on here today, but i've been looking at everybody elses live journals and thinking i've they can get all pissy so can i. So here I go......

AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT IS UP WITH MY LIFE, ITS INSANE.... I FEEL LIKE NOTHING IS HOW IT SHOULD BE.... I MEAN, DREW FINALLY ASKS ME OUT, AND I'M ALL EXCITED.... BUT THEN HE STARTS ACTING ALL WIERD AND MOODY AND SILENT, AND I'M LIKE, U WERE SOOOO HAPPY WHEN YOU ASKED ME OUT AND I SAID YES, BUT NOW YOUR FLIPPING DEPRESSED, WHAT DID I DO TO MAKE YOU ACT LIKE I'M INVISIBLE. WHAT IS UP DREW???? I REALLY LIKE YOU.... BUT WHAT IS GOING ON?

THEN THERE IS MY PARENTS, WHICH I'M SURE YOU ALL HAVE HEARD ME COMPLAIN ABOUT THEM BEFORE, BUT I'M STILL MAD AT THEM. I FEEL LIKE THEY ARE TOTALLY TRYING TO CONTROL MY LIFE. I WISH THEY WOULD JUST BACK OF FOR A LITTLE WHILE AND LET ME BREATHE. ITS LIKE NOTHING I DO IS GOOD ENOUGH FOR THEM, I'M NEVER DOING THE RIGHT THING.... WHY CAN'T THEY JUST BE HAPPY WITH ME THE WAY I AM? I'M NOT PERFECT, BUT SO WHAT!!! HOW IS IT THAT GOD IS ABLE TO FORGIVE ME FOR ALL THE MISTAKES I'VE MADE, BUT MY PARENTS CAN'T EVEN FORGIVE ME FOR ONE? HOW CAN YOU CALL YOURSELF A CHRISTIAN AND ACT LIKE THAT... I MEAN, I KNOW THAT I HAVE NO RIGHT TO JUDGE, CAUSE I'M SURE NOT PERFECT, BUT THIS HURTS....

THEN THERE IS ME... WHY IS IT THAT I HURT THE ONES I LOVE OVER AND OVER AGAIN?.... WHY IS IT THAT I FEEL LIKE I CAN NEVER BE PRETTY ENOUGH OR SMART ENOUGH OR SKINNY ENOUGH OR FUNNY ENOUGH OR GOOD ENOUGH?... WHY IS IT THAT I CAN'T LOVE THE ONE GUY WHO HAD NEVER STOPPED LOVING ME?... WHY IS IT THAT GOD SHOWS ME WHAT I'M SUPPOSED TO DO OVER AND OVER AGAIN, JUST WHEN I NEED AN ANSWER, BUT THEN I IGNORE HIM AND SCREW THINGS UP ALL OVER AGAIN?... WHY IS IT THAT I TRUST ALL THE WRONG PEOPLE, ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HURT ME MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE... BUT I CAN'T TRUST THE PEOPLE WHO DESERVE MY TRUST?...

i just wish i had some answers for once

Current Mood: confused

Well, I'm writing again.... sorry it took, like, 6 months...... and sorry tyler that i didn't post something on here when i told u i would. Life is rockin awesome, i'm almost completely content. I'm in high school (Woodrow Wilson), I've got the coolest friends (Tyler, Buford, Margaret, Juanita, Wills, Arianna, Brandi, Arielle, the list goes on), I've got a boyfriend (Drew! YAY!), I'm in band (color guard and flute), i'm on swim team (sometimes....), and I've got an amazing youth group! It really can't get any better! I would tell you about my problems, but I'll try and stay happy for a little while longer....

I am the ultimate best friend to guys. Almost all of my friends are boys, and thats how i like it. I'm sooo much more comfortable with guys, i can relax and have fun. i don't have to worry about gossip and brats who act like your friend to your face but stab you in the back as soon as you leave. Any girls like me know exactly what I mean. Guys are blunt and in-your-face.

And I FLIRT!!!! I love to flirt, and my guy frineds do the same, they know not to take it seriously. But I have one guy friend..... he's different. I like him alot. And we flirt a little bit.